I’m kind of behind… so I’m going to have double up a few days.

Day 3:
What Drives My Life?

This seemed to talk about what seemed to be the main focus of our lives. I mean really nutshelling it. Well I read the examples he gave and I think mine is definately trying to please others. I always want my house to look just so, and I always want to be agreeable to others, and I always worry about hurting other people’s feelings. Which I do because I tend to be a little too realistic in life. Which makes me rather blunt. But I always worry that my words will hurt someone. So I try so hard to be myself but say things in ways that will not upset other people. I just want to be liked I guess. I don’t want anyone to say “There’s Ozma who has the trashy house” or “There’s Ozma who is just plain rude.” Or whatever.

I know I can’t please everyone, but I try anyway. I try so hard to make sure I’m presentable for my family. I feel all this familial obligations. I must act like a proper lady. Sometimes I can be a bit too formal. I want to make sure that my inlaws think I am treating their son and grandchilden well. I feel like I have to try extra hard since I do not technically work. I know I do the web design from home and I love being a stay at home mom/wife… but I feel like I should excel because I have so much more time than they, who work full time out of the house jobs.

Day 4:
Made to last forever…

Another chapter which of course reiterated truths I already know. Life is just not the 80 year average we sit on this rock hurtling through space. It is so much more than that. We lived before we were born. We shall live once more once we pass this earthly existance. It is hard to live for the eternities. Life seems too short sometimes. But we need to be ever mindful of the eternal being we each are.

The discussion question asks what I should stop doing and what I should start doing. Golly, I don’t know. I’m kind of stumped. I know I’ve my flaws, but I’m not sure what they are in relation to this. I will definately ponder this as I shut down my computer and lay in bed. And as I go to MOPS tomorrow. I know I should try doubly hard to not only draw closer to my Lord, but I should live so that others might draw closer to Him as well. But how to do this even more than I am now… I’m not sure.

OK, I’m rather tired. I must away to bed! Night all!