This post is going out late, but I really felt it was important to put out anyway. I blame receiving the P90X program in the mail and reading all the information that came with it. I got slightly distracted for far too long. Bad me!
I digress. This is about the spiritual side of me. Not the obsessive reading of the P90X program.
And let’s face it, it’s not really P90X that distracts me from my spiritual self. It’s children, it’s marriage, it’s errands, it’s housework, it’s mealtimes, it’s T.V., it’s Facebook…
It’s life in general.
There’s just so much to do and never enough hours in the day. However, the most important time to me is the time I spend in spiritual pursuits.
It doesn’t matter what you do to energize your spirit. Some people turn to faith in a God while others just meditate and focus on their mental selves. Both are good and I try to work on both.
I am Christian. In fact I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I searched through a lot of churches before I settled on this one. This isn’t really the post for that, just know that I spent a lot of time in study and prayer and love being a Mormon. I love my Savior, Jesus Christ. And I want to be closer to Him and know Him more.
Not that I ever didn’t work on my faith, but there for a while it was hard to just keep up with chasing my two babies and of course focusing on Caramon’s illness. So you know, progression was not the main focus on my life.
A few years ago, I felt strongly that to understand myself as a woman and grow, I should focus on a study of women in the Scripture. It took a while for me to really formulate a good method, but some of you may remember my Walking With Women. I loved it. The things you learn from these often ignored Bible stories are just amazing.
I was thinking about doing this again. Focusing on another few women and letting myself grow in my womanhood as well as spirituality.
Last year I made a goal to attend the Temple at least once a month. I’ve often made this goal and fallen short. Last year, I missed only a couple of calendar months, however there were several months that I attended multiple times. In the end it averaged it and so that was good. I’ve decided to continue this, only attempt to not miss a single calendar month.
In August/September, I got to go to the Temple an amazing three weeks in a row. I photographed two weddings and then my entire stake (that’s a group of congregations in a geographic area much akin to a Catholic diocese) took a day to worship in the Temple culminating in a fantastic meeting of us all together. It was fantastic. Especially after having attended the Temple the two weeks previously after photographing the weddings.
Three weeks in a row made an incredible difference in my spiritual and mental health. I felt more at peace and better able to cope with the trials I was facing. Good thing because my fall was a little insane. I don’t think I’m ready to commit to twice a month just due to the time involved and the fact I have the boys at home. However, I’d like to see myself going at least once every calendar month with an extra visit once a quarter.
I would also like to continue some of the things encouraged by my Bishop last year (peaceful home via no yelling and three prayers a day) as well as the peaceful home. We’ve got a new candle of peace given to me by a wonderful woman who I visit from the Church.
I’d also like to be a better Visiting Teacher. (it’s a program where women visit with other women in the church. I love it, but I’m terrible at it!)
One thing I would like to do is to find more ways to increase my spirituality through study and prayer. I’ll be looking for more things like the “Making my home a haven” with maybe a little more spiritual leanings.
I would love to hear what others are doing to improve their spirituality.
I feel like that there is *something* that the Lord would have me do, and I need to be prepared to do it. I have an inkling of an idea or two, but they are pretty vague. I’m sure that they will become more clear, but I want to make sure I am ready for whatever he wants of me.
I remember the words I sang in choir at University: “Here I am, Lord. It is I, Lord. I have heard you, calling in the night. I will go, Lord. If you need me. I will hold your people in my heart.”
The Lord is calling, and I want to be ready for what he needs of me. I can do so much more. I want to do so much more.
Project: Me is something I have been working on to improve myself in various aspects of my life. I started about a year or so ago, but never actually formalized it. This is my attempt to record it and formulate goals. I feel this needs to become a real project. The only way I will ever find happiness is to become happy myself. Without working on myself, I will never find nor maintain happiness. Project: Me will most likely be a lifelong endeavor, but enjoy this glimpse of my attempts at becoming a better wife, mother, child of God… a better me!
Are you working on your own personal project? I would love to hear about it. Meanwhile stay tuned for:
Wordless Wednesday (Ooops! I’ll cover this next week!)
You’ve inspired me — I never have a plan. Maybe that’s why I feel stagnant. Thanks, I needed this.
Lady Ozma said:
I always feel stagnant. I still haven’t moved on this. I still blame the darn winter. I need spring!